A sermon illustration and a dream

I have always believed that my story, no matter what part of it or the whole is not just my story.  It's God story and I have been able to play a part of it, but it has never ever been my story to keep to myself.

Kent and I met with Derrick and Sara Lee while they were in town for the BCYD Conference.  He asked me some questions about our 2012 year and we told him our story.

We dwelt mostly on our battle with Cancer.  Derrick said in his sermon Cancer is a battle not to be taken lightly.  It is a struggle.  It is very much like sin, Derrick captured our struggle very well in his May 5th sermon.  I completely agree with his sermon.

I am a nerd.  I sit on most Sunday or Monday nights listening to sermons online.

A couple of weeks ago I listened to Derrick's May 5th sermon and I was struck by what he said.  I love that he equates Chemotherapy and Radiation to the Holy Spirit.  http://emmanuelnet.ca/sermons/

While I slept that night I had a very disturbing, very real dream.  I dreamed that I was in the lobby of EC and a woman walked up to me and said, "I know you were faking the cancer thing.  I know you were doing it all for attention."

It was a direct quote of a number of years ago.  She told me years ago that she thought I was faking my walk with God.  I remember the night very clearly.  I couldn't believe what she was saying, because at that time all I had left was God.  That night, I got into my car and I made a plan to drive into oncoming traffic.  Thankfully, Pam was expecting me and I didn't follow through with my plan.

I had a date with Sara Lee when she was here and I had an opportunity to talk with her for a couple hours.  One of the things I told her was, of all the things I "had" when I lived in Kelowna, there were times when all I had was God, my relationship with God.

I know that Satan would love to use my insecurty or my fear of seeing her has started to creep in, but I know that I know Satan has tried to have a foothold in my story several times.  I am beyond letting Satan into my life and having a free for all.  I have also learned through some of the toughest of lessons and circumstances not to bring into my life or give Satan permission to mess with my life.

So back to the dream.  Raspberry.  Go suck rope Satan.  I've had enough of you.