The very best of an ugly situation...

If you have known me for any length of time....let's say, if you've known me since 1997-2000, you'd know I have a healthy (clean) crush on Martin Smith (Delirious? Front Man)  Today started with a little Martin Smith, Kim and Jesus dance party....Fire Never Sleeps

When the surgeon's office calls and says, hey come in on Monday instead of Wednesday--the alarms go off.  I just can't help it.  Being asked to come in sooner than later doesn't always mean good news.

In fact, in this last couple of weeks, it's been just plain bad news.

What it meant this time was -- she needed Wednesday to do surgeries.  So, it had no bearing on my pathology report.  We've been all waiting on the pathology report.

Today, I went in with Kent to have my post surgical follow-up.  The steri-strips were taken off, the wound was assessed, it's all doing very well.  I talked about the migraines, to which the surgeon stated, "it could've been just bad luck." I agree. It could've been nothing but dumb luck.

The pathology report had arrived and we went over it.  It is the very best of a very ugly situation.  There was no cancer found in the lymph nodes or in the lymph channels. Praise God!! There was a .5mm mass left in my body that will have to be dealt with, but that is coming.

I am looking at a call and appointments with the BCCA (BC Cancer Agency) for treatment.  I am looking at potentially taking Tamoxifen (as the mass was ER+), radiation and even chemotherapy.  My surgeon told me she wouldn't speak about treatment--she'd leave that to the oncologist. 

I came home and called BCCA for an appointment.  They had cancelled my November 30th appointment and promised that they would call in the beginning of December to reschedule.  They haven't called.

Let me be perfectly clear.  I still have a process to walk through.  Potentially, treatment with BCCA and then surgery and reconstruction.  We discussed this today with the surgeon.  I asked for a timeline, she stated because of that .5mm mass, that means that I am on a priority list for the next surgery.

Am I looking forward to this, no, not at all.  Have a I learned in my lifetime that life isn't easy for me?  Yes.  But I also know that God is good and he has walked through this already.  If He's gone ahead of me, what do I have to fear?  Nothing.

He's got this.  Queue another dance party.

Fire Never Sleeps

2 Samuel 6:14-15
Wearing a linen ephod, David was dancing before the Lord with all his might, while he and all Israel were bringing up the ark of the Lord with shouts and the sound of trumpets.