Hi, Kent here again.
Like all guests, I must eventually depart, or
Kim will be forced to do the kinds of things that a homeowner does when an
invited person overstays his welcome.
Perhaps this would include: cooking without salt or spice, turning down
the thermostat to uncomfortable levels, encouraging the dog to bark, or putting
rocks betweent the bedspring and the mattress.
Not that we would ever do that to anyone who ever stayed at our
house. Just saying. But I’ve got to go soon.
Perhaps the best way to close is to repeat some
words from the true blog author. These
are a few paragraphs selected from among many, but they reveal her heart. The first set are from a day or two after
Kimberly had given everything she had in her to give to make my birthday last
July a wonderfully memorable occasion:
So, the Pet Scan is positive. I was incredibly disappointed. That means more treatment. I was really hoping that this would be the end of it all.
I will do my next round of chemo starting tomorrow, then I meet with the Radiation Oncologist July10th and at some time in the next 5 weeks they will start with a 5 day/week radiation schedule. I am not sure for how long this schedule will be for--that is to be determined by the Radiation Oncologist.
My heart is hurting. My chest is hurting.
I can see that this schedule is amazing--the radiation will start AFTER Melissa's wedding--according to the Medical Oncologist.
There is always a silver lining -- sometimes it's harder to see than other times, but I have to say I am so incredibly disappointed.
I am thrilled that they are working toward a cure. Not just to prolong my life. I am submitting to their knowledge that there is some more things to learn, more dependence to gain. Yes, I said dependence. I have spent a lifetime trying to be independent. To be a strong, courageous woman of faith. This whole sickness has taught me that it's ok to lean on my family for support, to be weak and to be cared for by them.
It really has been a significant time of growth for me. I am thankful for that, but I am so, so ready for this to be over.
To me, those are incredible statements of
humility, faith, and strength.
Statements for me to ponder and learn from. Those words were said when even the near
future was still very much a question mark for my wife. These next are recent, looking back on a
tumultuous and triumphant year. They also
are precious to me, as they show what kind of determined, authentically
faithful heart is at the center of that girl, and I will leave them to speak to
you and me:
During the sermon, Pastor Al said, what if you did something outrageous with your 2013. My first response was, God, how about a "normal" 2013, a work-for-a-living-ho-hum-ordinary life? That could be really OUTRAGEOUS!
But as I listened to the sermon, I started talking to God, that if 2012 was outrageous, ridiculous, stretching, breaking, restoring, fulfilling year, then make my 2013 absolutely outrageous...
My resolution though was set. I said over and over again, wreck me Lord, call me to your higher purpose, I will go where ever do whatever.
My life is yours. Do what you will.
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