Meltdown in Bastion Square

I heard this week, Friday actually that a friend of ours has just been diagnosed with Pancreatic Cancer.

The Big C, strikes again.

I was slightly stunned on Friday afternoon.  Work was difficult, as long as I had something to focus on, I didn't fall apart, but when I was "in between" jobs, I had to swallow down a lump in my throat and choke back tears.

This should never have to happen to anyone.

My heart was breaking, I know what she is facing.

Today, Kent and I and our newest edition to the family, Dixin headed out to do somethings before he has to go to school on Monday (orientation).

We found ourselves downtown--we saw a band just outside Darcy's (Pub) and so, we made our way back there.

It was a father and his 3 kids.  They were really amazing.

It was when they started singing, Our House, by Crosby, Stills and Nash.  I know the song, but today, I heard the words:

I'll light the fire, you place the flowers

In the vase that you bought today

Staring at the fire for hours and hours

While I listen to you play your love songs

All night long for me, only for me

Come to me now and rest your head for just five minutes

Everything is good

Such a cozy room, the windows are illuminated

By the evening sunshine through them

Fiery gems for you, only for you

Our house is a very, very, very fine house

With two cats in the yard, life used to be so hard

Now everything is easy, 'cause of you

And then there were tears.  I was standing in a crowd, losing it.

I have been reflective lots this month, it's a significant time of our lives.  We are about to celebrate 25 years of marriage and a dream come true, a trip to Scotland and England.  A 1 year anniversary of the end of treatment and other than the "post" chemo and radiation problems, I am healthy.  Max is headed to school, Jamie and Josh have moved.  Erik is moving out.

There has been a lot to absorb and to deal with.

And I stood in Bastion Square thinking, everything is easy 'cause of you.

Kent. My Rock.

I am so thankful that I chose well for marriage.  Well, who are we kidding, My DAD chose well for me in marriage.

In that moment, in Bastion Square I was so thankful for the man standing beside me.  I had no words, just tears. Thankful tears.  I can rest my head, for 5 minutes, everything is good.

Our House 1974 Crosby Stills Nash