I'm on my way

My internet connection is broken.

I am choked, because I use it a lot, but also because it was broken...on purpose.....by accident.

We have a student living with us that is completely addicted to gaming. Because he is 17 the school and his parents have asked that we help him limit his gaming.

So, we set parameters. They were broken.

To help him Kent blocked his access from 11 pm-7 am, he manipulated the router and assigned a new password. At this point we were frustrated. Then, in an attempt to miss school and game the day away, Kent blocked him from the internet for the day.

He then did some unspeakable act to my router causing it to fail on the street. Our neighbours may or may not have Internet access....We now have a tech guy coming to fix the problem.

The first problem to fix is the kid is moving on. The school has found him a new HomeStay Family and we send him along with our best wishes for a prosperous school year.

I can't even remember how many rules he has broken, but when he lit a cigarette in my house, I. Was. Done.

The second is getting my dang router working.

So last night, with no TV or Internet....I read. Gasp, right? No, I read all the time, when I say all the time, I point to my record of last year, 27 450+paged books in 12 months.

Bam.

The problem with reading so much is I retain so much. So much so, my head doesn't turn off at night.

So a couple nights ago, while tossing and turning....I started a sermon in my head. I was bright, I was funny, I had a great example....I even had the Pentecostal 3 points down!

I was thinking about the top 3 reasons why I have been able to live my life to now. I actually remember thinking in elementary school “I'll never live to be ____.” 20, 25? Heaven forbid 30.

When asked how I was able to handle all this it comes to 3 short answers that I know and believe to the bones of me:

1. God LOVES me. I am completely loved.

2. He doesn't give me MORE than I can handle.
3. He gives me the STRENGTH to get through it. Not on my OWN strength but leaning on His.

Pretty much my life in a nutshell. So, Sunday night, I go to sleep with this warm, yummy feeling of I can do it, because God has done 1,2,3 for me!

Today, coming home from work, I am greeted by an anxious student who has decided he doesn't want a new HomeStay Family. Uh, whatever. I point to the list of broken rules. He says, “My friend tells me that his Homestay doesn't make the food. I want to stay here.”

I realize my lasagna is not going to be ready by 6. Alternate plans are needed ASAP. I start a Beef Stroganoff.

My phone beeps, “Mama Kim :(“

And I am in tears. Complete meltdown. One of my precious kids has tried to commit suicide and is in the hospital.

I am on my way. Mama's comin'.

Not everyone lives in the state of mind like I do. I have learned to battle back the negative reel-to-reel that whirls in my head.

God loves you. He will never give you more than you can handle. He will give you the strength to get through it.

The sermon floating in my head was not for me....I didn't realize God was prepping me for my precious one.

And Mama's on her way. To hold you, to hold you up, to point you back to HOPE.