I need a birthday present!

I feel like I am single-handedly paying for the city of Victoria's expenses.  It seems I can't park downtown without getting a parking ticket.  Yesterday I was 3 minutes late getting to my car and it has left me wondering....do they hide in the bushes???

Yet another ticket, from yesterday, just got paid.  I am fearing parking near Royal Jubilee Hospital today...they are the most cutthroat.  I actually have had 2 parking tickets on my car there!

The other fear I am wrestling with today is my appointment with the radiation oncologist.  The last time I was with an oncologist I didn't get the news I was hoping for.  In fact, this past month has been really tough.

Twice I have heard that other women with cancer much harder to beat than mine have been healed.  I rejoiced with them..then days later I think...what about me?  God, mine was easy, I had lymphoma in the lymph nodes, she had lymphoma in her kidneys, or another had colon cancer--when is it my turn!

My whine fades to resolve that my fight is still on and I am not going to slip into despair.  I will remember to rejoice for the fortune of others--God is good and faithful.  I will learn what I need to in this trial--for God's glory.

I feel like I am sounding like a Psalm written by David....

After all the fear and resolve to push on, the Doctor I was supposed to see today wasn't my Radiation Oncologist...but rather a GP oncologist.  When I got into my appointment they stated that he was so backed up that they had to cancel my appointment and reschedule for next Friday.

Grrrr.

Ok, whatev.  I can roll with this.  I was just hoping to be on my way to Kelowna next weekend to drop off M and Js stuff.  That may or may not happen now.

I guess if we can ship it--that would be good.  Or we may have to get a uhaul and take the stuff to Kelowna...so much to decide.

While doing my errands today after my appointment I had a moment.  It actually happens to me almost on a daily basis--whenever I drive my stupid Suzuki.  I stall the car constantly.  Today was no different.

Now, before you throw me under the bus and call me a woman driver you have to know that I am a good driver, I have been driving a standard since I was 17 and I have often thought about being a professional driver.

Today, I not only stalled--on a hill--but rolled into the truck behind me while trying to restart the car.  (He rear-ended me...that's what I tell my ego....)  We bought this car a year ago, it's already had a new clutch put into it and now its leaking oil on my driveway.  I am super unimpressed with this car.

I want my Honda back.  I should've never agreed to sell it last year....but it sure seemed to be the right thing to do at the time.  The Honda was a Christmas present from Kent.  Maybe I should ask for a new birthday present.  That's it.  I need a birthday present!