So, where are we now?

 Where are we now....

We have told our kids, our family and some friends.  I find repeating this story over and over again exhausting, so the blog is the best way for you to hear from me.

We are still making plans.

We have asked friends to take Libby for the time I'm in treatment.  We have found a great home for Lewis, he will be picked up tonight.  The couple drives for BC Cancer, so I might be catching a ride with him some day.  They fell in love with Lewis and I think this is the best for everyone involved.  

I will be talking with my Manager about taking a leave and setting up the new Research Admin Coordinator (temp position) well. I had talked to her about it last week, that regardless of the outcome of the biopsies, I was going to take at least a month leave of absence.  Life has been too stressful for too long.

I run a successful Airbnb from our home and I have bookings straight through to the Fall, so we looked at our calendar to see if we could keep those bookings, block parts of the calendar for respite and be really realistic as to what we really CAN do in these upcoming months.

We talked about downsizing.  We could definitely live in a smaller place with less work to do, we also don't NEED the Airbnb.  We won't be leaping into that decision too quickly.  There is still time to process what our future will look like...

We went looking for a new couch.  This may seem like an odd plan to make, but last times I have been through this, a recliner has been a lifesaver for sleep and recuperation.  In 2017 - I slept in the recliner for more than 10 weeks. (I wasn't supposed to sleep on my side for a minimum of 6 weeks)

There are some bright sides to this and it is in my nature to try to find the good:

• I could have the summer off.
• The puppies stress me out -- having them fostered/rehomed hrough care is a relief for me.
• I have a second (or third) chance to recuperate well.  I haven't done that in the past, I have rushed back to work, this time will be different.  I'm taking care of me first.
• Kent and I were able to find a way back to each other, and our relationship isn't going to look the same as before.
• I have a great house to convalesce. And a short walk to the beach.
• I'm looking forward to what God is going to do, I'm not ready to leave my kids, my grandbugs, Kent or my family.  So, God, it's up to you, let's see what you can do through me, through Doctors and Oncologists, Nurses...and other allied staff. I'm ready to witness your greatness.

The tears have stopped for now, I'm sure they'll be back, today I have found some peace in this process.