I was sitting eating breakfast this morning, thinking about alone. Kent had left to go to his course and I was sitting reading the paper with a flavourless cup of Earl Grey Tea.
15 or more years ago, we were in Edmonton for Breakforth. I had decided along with a group of adults to head to a young adult service in the morning...we were going to take the subway and find our place amongst the university.
In the morning, everyone including my own husband bailed on me! I decided since I was up, I could do this. Alone. I had never done anything like this ever.
I set out from the hotel in tears, found the subway and found my way to the university, including finding the location of the service and got into a line up. I was near the front. By the time the service was about to start, my coherts came in -- lined up for the 2nd service.
It was only a few short years later, after Breakforth that I was leading 17 teens from Emmanuel to go to New York City. I had no one to rely on, they were all relying on me.
I have never been good at alone, quiet time.
Today, I realized, that step of faith, has lead me to great places today. I did all of the radiation appointments alone, save 2. Everyone was working, or busy, or on holidays.
I can't imagine how I would've handled the past 18 months without the "training" I have had over the past 15 years.
Now, I am sitting in Starbucks, in Burnaby, contemplating going to a museum in Vancouver. No longer in fear of being alone, getting lost or hurt.
Looking back it is easy to see God's plan, I just wish He'd reveal what the next steps are...and quickly.
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