But it will do funky things to you.
Today, I have had a brain on overload. Literally I have been thinking so much, my brain hurts. At one point today I contemplated robbing a bank--it was a fleeting thought, but still it was there. At the same time, my body just wanted me to stop.
Body said Nap!
Head said Marathon!
I actually went to get a few groceries I had missed yesterday and found I was a little wobbly. Decided it was time to go home and obey the body. So I sat down, but my head just wouldn't stop.
So, I decided to look up the side effects of Prednisone. Dumb move. It was almost as bad as looking up the you tube video of the bone marrow biopsy. Dumb move.
It did give me some perspective, so I was right in telling Kent to go to Vancouver today--He had a meeting with a disgruntled customer. He just texted me he is on his way home on the 7 pm ferry. Yeah!
Thankfully he wasn't around for my verbal nasty diarrhea that I get from the Prednisone. It's almost like I have an out-of-body experience and I just can't stop what's coming out of my mouth. So I have decided that I will leave the room, have a bath, stay away from my family--I don't want to hurt them with my nastiness.
I always thought that this was a lack of self-control, but now I have seen the mood altering drug at work...it's not fun and there is nothing that can be controlled.
On a completely different note I was looking for a song that my friend Sandy Seward sent to me months ago, I listened to it today, and it was so encouraging. So while my mind was whirling 10 000 mph--I sat back in a chair and listened to it, trying to rest:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ytE8um04l24
One of my favorite songs. As Chris recovers from heart surgery he still has days when his heart is racing and he has chest pressure and pain. Dr. says "that is normal and expected after surgery" "don't go to ER unless it lasts longer than 24 hrs then we will shock your heart and get it going normal again". I don't think so. Our Lord has set our feet upon a rock, He is our shield, our strength , our portion, our deliverer, our shelter, He is all we need in time of need. When we play this song and sing along all on this earth fades away. We remember we are in His hands.
ReplyDeleteThat has to be my favourite saying from the Drs, "that's normal", whatever.
ReplyDeleteI am leaning and trusting in the Lord, this week has been tough, it's been such a trial, yet so good for me.
I will never understand why when we are in crisis mode, God is just so close--it should be like this all the time.