And no, I don't mean the Starfield Song.
I am having more and more difficulty typing, my forearms and hands are very numb...it was supposed to get better not worse.
I woke today, about 11 am, I have lost 2 days. It has been a long, long 2 days.
The last REAL thing I remember is sitting in a BC Cancer Agency class learning how to apply eyebrows...and wham. A migraine hit slightly after that. I was learning new beauty techniques.....then brokenness.
Chemo effects with a migraine, I don't recommend.
In fact, actually it started the night before that.
We were headed out to celebrate Grad with Max, take him for dinner, shower him with gifts...when I tried to tell the family something in the car. Sometimes, the effects of the drugs are that I JUST can't form a coherent sentence. It's irritating, it's frustrating and I was called a pharisee a couple months ago because I couldn't form my thoughts.
So, in the car there is laughter and mocking.
I retry to form my sentence in a different way,
More. Mocking. More Laughter.
And I was reduced to tears.
I should've known to stay home, I had pushed hard all day to get wedding stuff done.
The next morning I had all the symptoms for a migraine, but I have also had them since March...so now biggie I just headed out in my day like normal.
Now, I have lost days.
One of the big events of the past couple days that I literally think I slept through was my appointment with the Radiation Oncologist and Kent.
We arrived at the BC Cancer Agency for our appointment and I was stupidly disappointed to be back there.
The Rad Onc stated that the lump has been reduced by chemo, but it hasn't completely gone away. So, they are now counting on getting rid of the cancer with Radiation. So, I will have 20 treatments of radiation,, 5 days a week for 4 weeks or so.
Joy.
They are not sure of the date and time it will start, they will start with a non-contrast CT and then go with treatment. She said, "You will be tired."
Really, don't know what that is like.
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